I no longer care. Apathy has become my friend and destructive enemy. I know deep down that there are pieces missing and may never be found, and their voids have been filled with things that only eat away at the gaping holes even more.
I want a friend, a confidante who will watch movies with me without ulterior motives. I want to drink tea or redbull or wine with someone and paint and feed off of each other's positive energy-not sit around and mope about what's broken and not easy to fix.
I want to feel sunshine on my skin and deep inside my soul and shed some light on the darkness that threatens to consume whatever light I have left.